Ashton Kowalski's Journal

Why do I get sucked into these things?
1. If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?    I'd say I'm about to be rich beyond imagination, because seriously, there's gotta be mad money there...

2. Do you trust all of your friends? To a degree. I hate to say it, but Lucy, Meredith, and my sister are the only people alive I trust unconditionally.

3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love? To be with Lucy, I almost went to war with God. That should be answer enough.

4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason? Again.. to a degree. I believe everything happens for a reason... just that at times, those reasons are unfair and need to be nullified by any means necessary.

5. Can you make a dollar in change right now?   Yeah. Even I'm not that damn broke.

6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor? God, probably Wells. He's a little... meek, but he's WICKED intelligent.

7. Are you afraid of falling in love? I used to be... but being in love with Lucy feels as natural as breathing. And as necessary.

9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times? I've been accused of obsessing over my Lucy... but if that's the case, then so be it.

10. What’s your most favorite scar? I have no 'favorite' scars. Each one represents pain I wish not to think of. But the most profound have been the ones on my heart, each time I've lost someone I love."

11. When was the last time you flew in a plane? I've never been on one. Hope to never HAVE to be.

12. What did the last text message you sent say?   It was to my sister, actually... asking how the baby was doing.

13. What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex? Hm. A bright smile, pale skin, long legs... hrm. I suppose I really didn't have a CHANCE when I met Lucy, hm?

14. Fill in the blank. I love.....: Every single thing about Lucy Van Warren.

15. What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future? I want to find a way to tap back into magic again. I miss feeling that dark power flowing through me.

16. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call? I wouldn't have to call Lucy, because I know she'd be at my side the moment I woke. So I'll say my sister, and probably Buffy or Gwen.

17. How many kids do you want to have? ....we're JUST talking with Lucy here, right? *laughs and runs away*

18. Would you make a good parent? God, I hope so... if nothing else, at least I'm evidentily good at MAKING kids...

19. Where was your profile picture taken? A small, independent studio near my home. I'm friends with the owner.

20. What’s your middle name? Gabriel. Yes. My middle name is that of an angel. How the fates mock me.

21. Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? Hrm. Honesty tends to get me in trouble. Fine. I'm thinking about both wanting to get my powers back... and about wanting to lock Lucy and myself in my bedroom and not leave until neither of us can walk properly.

22. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be? I would find a way to save my mother. I would give almost anything to have known her.

23. Who was or will be the maid of honor/ best man in your wedding? Probably Neely or Meredith. They're my two best friends, without having to think twice about it.

24. What are you wearing right now? Black pajama bottoms and black boxers. Shut up.

25. Righty or Lefty? Righty.

26. Best place to eat? I tend to enjoy The Sugar Shack. Despite the incessantly cheerful decor, the food is great and the scenery tends to be... very satisfying.

27. Favorite jeans? I only have a few comfortable, worn-in pairs of blue jeans. So probably one of those.

28. Favorite animal? Since meeting a certain friend... I've grown to have more of an affinity towards wolves...

29. Favorite juice? Probably orange juice. Loved it since I was a kid.

30. Have you had chicken pox? You know? I'm honestly not even SURE.

31. Have you had a sore throat? I had a throat infection in my early teens that hurt like a BITCH.

32. Ever had a bar fight? Thankfully, no. I think my skills are better suited to magic than fisticuffs.

33. Who knows you the best? I want to say Lucy, but... I think truly, Meredith knows me better than anyone. Lucy, as I do with her, puts me on a bit of a pedestal. Meredith knows the good and the bad of me, and understands it all.

34. Shoe size? 10 1/2

35. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses? No, although the headaches I occasionally get suggest I may need them eventually.

36. Ever been in a fight with your pet? I don't even want to know what the hell this question is supposed to mean.

37. Been to Mexico? Heh. Yes. Once. With Meredith and a few of our Sunnydale friends. First time I ever got drunk. Other than drunken sex with Mere (and possibly with TJ, my memory is fuzzy there), I can't say I remember a lot about that trip.

38. Did you buy something today? Just some food and coffee at The Sugar Shack after training with Buffy.

39. Did you get sick today? No... should I have?

40. Do you miss someone today? For some reason, I really missed Mere today. I know she's happier now... but me and Lucy were talking about her, and it hit me that I *really* miss having her with us.

41. Did you get in a fight with someone today? Sort of... a little, mostly friendly argument with Buffy about whether or not I should try to get my black magic back. She thinks I should use this as an opportunity to go towards good magic, and I think I've done plenty of good with dark magic. Needless to say, we came to no real conclusion there.

42. When is the last time you had a message? Sigh. A few hours ago, on my way to grab drinks at The Sugar Shack. It was "DONT FORGET TO PUT EXXXXXXXXTRA SUGAR IN MY COFFEE PLEASE! THANK U BABY!!!!!" Three guesses who that was from. First two? Don't count.

43. Last person to lay in your bed? Lucy. An image I could think about all day and not get tired of.

44. Last person to see you cry? Lucy and Meredith. Because I cried in front of them both when Mere brought her back to me.

45. Who made you cry? Um... just read the last answer.

46. What was the last TV show you watched? Ok, here's where I admit one of my dirty little secrets. I totally LOVE Family Feud. I'm fucking GOOD at that shit, too.

47. What are your plans for the weekend? ....Plowing Lucy? God I hope her family doesn't see this...

48. Who do you think will repost this? Eh. This is me. Probably Lucy and Buffy. Maybe Mac. Mere already did one... and who the fuck else even LIKES me?

49. Who was the last person you hung out with? Buffy. Although I need to get in touch with Mac. I miss her, and frankly, the thought of her hanging with Brayden Bale constantly scares me.

50. Is there anyone you'd say yes to if they asked you to marry them TODAY? I want to wait until she's at least 18 or 19... but I swear to every god I know of... if SHE asked ME? I don't think I'd be able to resist. Lucy's all I want in this world.